Monday, November 29, 2010

No Posts About WW?

I went for an interview last week, and after asking me the standard questions about my resume, the interviewer randomly asked me what my sign was.  I was taken aback, but quickly responded, "Scorpio."

She paused for a moment and said, "Interesting.  Are you stubborn?"

Boy.  I was not expecting a line of questioning like this.  I tried to think about any sort of interview prep and training that had ever been shoved into my brain, and attempted to make this one of those turn-a-negative-positive moments.  So I told her that stubborn sounded awfully negative, but I would be comfortable calling myself "strong-willed."

Next up:  "Are you a perfectionist?"

I know there are negatives to being a perfectionist.  I'm sure of it.  I'm sure there are positives.  But at that moment...nothing was coming up.  So I just agreed.

And finally:  "Are you sensitive?"

I almost laughed in her face.  Seriously, if I'm mocked one more time about how often I cry...I'll probably cry.  But yes, I am very, very, very sensitive.  But again, I tried to convey how this would benefit my work in this position.

So why am I telling you all this (other than it's a hilarious story about the battles of unemployment)?  To explain why I haven't been writing about my weight loss.

The truth is, I've totally fallen off the bandwagon.  I haven't weighed myself in awhile, but I've gained weight.  The question is...how much?  At this point, I'm scared to even see numbers because of how my pants fit, and how my shirts are squeezing too much, and of how I pant coming up my three flights of stairs to my apartment.  And why?  Because I started slipping off the bandwagon weeks ago...and once I slipped I gave up.  Because I am all of those things mentioned above: stubborn, perfectionist, and sensitive.  And when one pound creeps back on, it destroys me.  And now its not just one pound it's...an unidentified, terrifying number of truth.

But as of today, I'm getting back on that bandwagon.  I have had to give up my Weight Watchers membership for now, due to the cost, but that doesn't mean I'm not going to lose weight.  I know program pretty well right now that I think could do it without meetings or online.  And maybe I will try and fiddle with some good old calorie counting.

Who knows how it will happen?  I just know it must.

Do you find that you fit into your astrological sign?  Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't.  But those characteristics seemed to be pretty spot on.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Our First Holiday

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. It's my favorite holiday of the year! I love sitting around the table with family and friends, I love prepping for the meal, laughing in the kitchen. I love the silly things my siblings and I do to avoid that prep, including random games of tag (usually turning into tackle) football in the front yard.

Two years ago, Mr. C and his parents came to my family's house for Thanksgiving and it was great getting to spend a holiday with him, FMIL, and FFIL. It was our first time spending a holiday together (of the Big Two: Thanksgiving and Christmas. We've spent many an Easter, 4th of July, and Groundhog Day together).

But this year, things are different. This year, we are engaged. Which means no more splitting up for holidays (at least that is what it means for us...everybody does it differently!)

Which leaves me feeling a little like this:



Not because I'm worried about becoming the Thanksgiving feast, as this turkey surely is, but because this will be my first Thanksgiving not spent with my family. Even the fall semester I spent abroad, both parents and sibs made it across the pond, and we shared a lovely Italian meal as our Thanksgiving feast.

I love Mr. C. I love his family. But that doesn't mean I'm not going to be sad to be away from my family. It means different traditions, different food, and no one to tackle in the front yard to avoid clean up.

I am looking forward to this new chapter in Mr. C and I's relationship, we are becoming our own family! We are going to make our own traditions!

But please, give a me a moment to mourn MY family and MY traditions. Because I think this is part of this whole getting-married journey. Losing the MY and loving the OUR.

This year, its OUR first holiday. And I will love it. I will just ache a bit for what was mine.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Invitations, Post II of ?

Post 1 - The Original Brainstorm

I don't know when I will ever have a concrete idea of how I want our invitations to look. Maybe the day we mail them out? But maybe even then I will want to change them.


Recently, I was contacted through the WeddingBee boards regarding an offer for free invitation design! I'm still a little unclear as to what that pertains to (the entire suite? graphics?) and am waiting for a response. But here is what I sent out, in response to questions relating to what I am looking for in my invitations.


Wedding Colors: Our main color is orange, with pops of purple. We also want to bring in fall colors, including maroons, browns, greens and maybe a little grey. (I talked about this in depth here.)



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Wedding Theme (basically if you have any themes or thoughts on what you'd want on the invitation): I want our invitations to be a good mix of what our wedding will (hopefully) convey. Although we will be getting married in this beautiful barn, overlooking this beautiful countryside, and we can respect and appreciate the area as well as the advantage of being near the farm, we also have lived in Brooklyn for 3+ years. So we are certainly not 100% ritzy city-folk, but that is a big part of who we are as well.

I'm hoping that our invitations are beautiful (duh) with a bit of class and sparkle, but still perfectly simple. I'm hoping to have the actual invitation mostly filled with text with maybe one sort of graphic or embellishment. Something with scrolls or the like. Although I love invitations with birds or trees, I don't think that fits our wedding theme as well. I'm more simple I think.

Here are some ideas of things I liked:



I love the organization of this one, with the band and the pockets, but not a fan of the graphics on the actual invitation!



This is another good example of how I want our suite to be displayed.



I loved this woman's band with the square she created to act as a seal. I would love some sort of monogram or graphic that stays consistent in our paper goods.

I also shared all of the inspiration I have posted about before.

So we will see where that takes us. Hopefully I will get an awesome graphic design, with some fancy graphic embellishment that I can run with.  Together with my FMIL, we will cut and assemble as necessary. Or maybe I'm getting scammed? Who knows? At least it's not too close to my wedding date!

Have you ever relied on someone who contacted you for a free service? Don't forget, we got our engagement pictures done that way! 

Monday, November 22, 2010

Color Inspiration

Part of the reason I was so excited to have a New England Wedding in the fall was this:

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Oh! It's so pretty! The leaves, the colors, the crisp air (ok, you don't get that from the picture, but trust me, that air is CRISP).

I immediately wanted a fall wedding, and I immediately was set on having fall colors for our wedding. Maroons and browns and orange and reds. It basically would be like camouflage and we would blend right in with our beautiful fall surroundings.

But then I started looking some more...and I'm not the only gal looking to translate crisp air and fall colors into my wedding. In fact, it seemed that just about every other fall wedding was trying to do that as well. And no matter how awe-inspiring those photos were, and how intricate the details of their wedding were...it still all looked the same. Because the colors were the same.

So I shrugged, and set my sights out for new inspiration. That is when I stumbled on this:


Now let me give you a little background: (1) I painted my entire bedroom in two shades of purple in high school and (2) I went to Syracuse University, and therefore, Mr. C and I are obsessed with orange.

Ta-dah! The beginnings of our new wedding colors! 

We're just going to reverse things a bit. Mostly orange, pops of purple, and then I'm also going to throw in those traditional maroons and brown to really create my fall (and purple!) wedding colors.

The crazy thing is, I don't think adding the purple in is that wacky. I remember showing this to my Mom and she said, "Well you know, any really well landscaped lawn in New England also has purple mums." So I kept my eye out, and now that I was paying attention, it was true! There were purple mums! Dark purple and light purple mixed right in there with the maroons and browns and oranges. From that moment on I was sold.

I would get my orange:


And our wedding will (hopefully) come out something like this:

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Did you find color inspiration in a weird place? My inspiration photo was found on an interior design blog!

Thursday, November 18, 2010

E-Pics, Part II


In case you missed it...E-Pics, Part I

So I left off with us heading to the Brooklyn Bridge Park, but I also thought I should include Mr. C's fantastic mostly-solo shot.

Gosh, he's good looking.

There was also a sneak attack moment. The before and after of THIS picture, however, are not as cute. I do not have a cute "I was just scared" face.



We got distracted on our way to the park, and DC set us up for shots in front of two different backdrops. I think at this point, Mr. C was thanking his lucky stars that he got to sit for a minute or two.







This is one of MY favorites. Oh! The green! Oh the love! I like it!

But peek-a-boo! There she is, in all her glory. Ms. Brooklyn Bridge!




Up next, we make it to Brooklyn Bridge Park!

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Something to Dance to!

Music is very important to Mr. C. Both for our ceremony and our reception. From the beginning of this wedding planning adventure, Mr. C told me his biggest concerns were 1) music 2) food and 3) cake. The importance of 2) and 3) are self-explanatory for any groom, I'm sure. Music is important to Mr. C because of his musical background.

Mr. C was in marching band in high school, as well as singing in whatever he could. In college, Mr. C was in a musical (it's how we met!) and was also in an a cappella group. (Click the link for a YouTube video!) I was definitely an a cappella groupie (my love for Mr. C was in no way related, of course!)

Because it is so important to him, Mr. C is in charge of booking all our musical needs. The first weekend after we were engaged, Mom and Dad Busy Bee called us from an event they were attending and demanded we come sneak in to check out the band that was playing.

The First Class Band was phenomenal! While we were there we heard everything from Lady Gaga to The Beatles to The Drifters. We immediately hit the dance floor and rocked the rest of the night away.




Mr. C got in touch with The First Class Band through their website, and unfortunately, they were way over our budget. I think if we had really put our mind to it, we would have found a way to adjust our budget to make The First Class Band work for us, because we really did enjoy their performance, and Mr. C had no complaints about the quality of the vocals.

After that first attempt to book a wedding band (almost a year and a half before our wedding!) we put it in the back of our minds for a bit. Mr. C was starting his rotations in his third year of medical school, and a band for the wedding was no longer at the top of his priority list. So we left off there for a number of months.

Then Mr. C got back on the hunt and we tried to figure out what we wanted: a band or a DJ? Was it more important to have live entertainment for a higher cost? Or would we be excited to be able to play some of our favorite songs, just the way we were used to hear them?

Did you have a wedding band or a wedding DJ? As a wedding guest, do you have a preference?

I've actually never been to a wedding with a band, but I love to dance around! Is one better than the other for dancing?


Tuesday, November 16, 2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY...


To ME :)



It's my 26th birthday today! When did I get so darn old?

Friday, November 12, 2010

E-Pics, Part I


I realized I have never shared my engagement photos with you! We did something a little differently - we did NOT use our wedding photographer. In fact, we had these photos done before we had even booked a wedding photographer at all! I actually found DC through the WeddingBee classified ads. He was a new photographer, and was looking to gain some experience with couples by offering free engagement sessions! I love engagement sessions! I live in the NYC area! This was my immediate reaction:



Unfortunately for DC, my next reaction was this:



When the heck were we going to schedule these?! I was studying for the bar, Mr. C was studying for the boards, starting his rotations, and for some reason, our free time never seemed to overlap. Luckily for us, DC was really accommodating and willing to extend his offer for us...over and over again.

Finally, after all the back and forth, we settled on the day after Mr. C's birthday. May not have been a great idea (I can tell we are a little bit tired, and a little bit hungover) but overall, they are amazing! How about a little less talk and a little more showing pictures?

We focused on Brooklyn. It's a part of who we are and a part of our relationship, so the Brooklyn Bridge and the Promenade in Brooklyn Heights was where we started:


A little coffee to get us started...and we needed it! Happy Day after your 25th Birthday Mr. C!



We both desperately wish we looked better in this photo. DC did a fantastic job of capturing the backdrop...Maybe we shouldn't have had those mixed drinks and nachos at 2 am the morning before...




This is a serious save the date contender!

And this is one of Mr. C's favorites!

I know we don't look our best here - but you have to love a picture that shows your genuine happiness to be together.

And a little narcissism on my part - but hey! DC made me look great!

Next up, we take a jaunt to Brooklyn Bridge Park and do a little tribute to where we met!


All photos by ColeEffect, unless otherwise noted.

November Has Quickly Turned Around

It happened a few hours after my post last week. I think either someone was sick of me complaining or wanted to perk my life up for me. Either way, I got some great news:

I PASSED THE NY BAR.


Needless to say, my week has been full of celebrating. Do you know what else happened?


I PASSED THE NJ BAR.


Wowza! What a week! And if that isn't enough:


I BOUGHT MY WEDDING DRESS.

So you'll excuse my disappearance...again. At least I wasn't moping! And today I can't stick around and write more - because I have an interview. Maybe putting things out there for the universe to deal with, and then seeing what you get back, can really turn things around? Seemed to work for me this week!

Friday, November 5, 2010

November is not Bringing me Luck


I have to write a rant post. I think that is exactly what my last post was - but as I try and write about all the happy things that are happening, it feels forced, and I sit here and cry and try to pretend to be happy and excited.


So instead, I will write about my sadness. And if you don't want to read about it, you certainly don't have to.

I'm getting married in less than a year. This is amazing. What isn't amazing, is that I have a sense of dread imagining all the money my parents are going to spend, feeling trepidation because I can't even pay my own bills and have no hope of getting a job anytime soon.

I'm unemployed. Sure, I have an internship that pays me about $11/hr. Sure, some people would be ridiculously grateful for even this bit of income. But I went to law school and incurred massive amounts of debt. An intern salary isn't going to cut it. And it certainly isn't going to help me find my next permanent position.

I'm unmotiviated to lose weight. In so many areas of my life, I only put half my energy into something. This currently includes my weight loss. No wonder I'm not seeing results. Either in weightloss or employment.

So isn't that what this blog is supposed to be about? Aren't I supposed to be conquering each of these things in a hard-fought battle in which I will overcome my fears, weaknesses, and my bills?

Then why do I feel so lost right now?

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Oops - I went missing!


Yeah...I did it, I let my blog lag. And I was doing so well so far! But I think it's bound to happen once in awhile :)

Where was I? Well, I went to a wedding, I went to Orlando, saw Harry Potter world, and then (of course) I got sick! So that has been what is keeping me away. But I promise, tonight, I'm sitting down, planning out the rest of my blog posts for this week, finishing the other part(s) to my invitation inspiration, and telling you why Weight Watchers is not going to make me happy at my weigh-in.

Till then, live with this:

It's me under the sorting hat!